Lucky

I am reflecting today on my behavior, recent occurrences, friends, child, marital situation, etc. etc. and I finally just decided to stop reflecting and realize how lucky I am. Reflecting can be good and it can help you grow but sometimes you can also get caught up in a whirlwind of why’s, why nots, and how comes. Life is way too short for that and so I will just realize I’m a very lucky girl. Sure I’ve had my trials, tribulations, heartbreaks, traumas, health issues and BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH, but despite them all I’m really proud of what I’ve done with my life and who I am becoming. I think I’ve built a good life for myself and I have some amazing people surrounding me with all their flaws and mine. Life is not perfect and it’s not meant to be so enjoy the good days and make the bad ones better because I guarantee you that your life is infinitely better than some other peoples’! We ALL have our own STUFF so just feel LUCKY!

My Grinchy Heart is Glowing!

I’m going to try very hard to type this out without crying but I’m not holding out much hope. I mentioned in my first blog how much my friend Elizabeth means to me and how she helped to further the process of change I was going through, but I realize more and more just what she’s doing to my life. I think we often forget we are all the same, sure we all have our unique personalities, but we’re all here to experience the fundamentals of life. We forgot to be compassionate to one another and remember that we really aren’t different. Be born, experience life, die! Does it get any simpler than that? So where am I going with this? Well, sometimes you get surprised and people DO remember this. Elizabeth is someone who has become incredibly close to me and thus very important and it seems everyone in my life sees that. People that know me or are close to me are reaching out to her just because they know how important she is to Grace and I or just because they’re GOOD PEOPLE! You don’t see that as often these days, people willing to do for others just because it’s the right thing to do. Compassion!

Life is amazing me more and more. All the strands of my life are weaving together, lessons are everywhere. My faith in humanity is strengthening, my heart is glowing again. I feel love all around me, something I had given up on years ago after Tim and I fell apart. So, thank you everyone, thank you cancer. There is good in everything. I know y’all may think that’s a strange statement, but tough times really do show people’s true colors. So, yes, thank you cancer! I said it last year when my mom was sick too. Be grateful for everything!